yep..i was pretty miserable the first couple weeks...but after a few weeks?.. it gave me hope...then?...it gave me "Choice"...whereas justa couple months back?..i was seriously contemplating the ultimate cure...esoecially going through the withdrawl session home alone by myself..and d@mn near followed through...sends chills down my spine today to think how close i came.
oh it aint all roses...yet..my family and i are still just about as disfunctional as ever but things are getting better...gradually..been prayin a lot and some of the little problems have taken care of themself and i got proactive about taking care of some of the bigger problems but the list is still quite lengthy but the good news is that my higher power (whom i choose to call God) and i are workin on it...we didnt get all screwed up over night so it aint all gonna get fixed overnight but at least theres a light at the end of the tunnel and as it appears?..i still got some time left on this big ball of dirt we call earth..i just gotta make sure i can chew and swallow what i bite off.
Got a great sponser...he's got 30 years C&S..lotta wisdom in that head of his..if i could bottle him and sell him?..i'd be an overnight millionaire!
and this was key...seeing how at one point in my life i myself had 16+ years C&S...i knew i was gonna need a serious sponsor to crack this 52 year old nut..and the dudes like a cross between steven spielberg and ghandi!
whelp?..headin out to a meetin..L8R Folks..luv Bill.
Hi Bill,
Congrats on the 30 days, man that's a scarey thought, sure as hell don't ever want to be there again. Sounds like you've been associated with recovery in the past so there is probably nothing new I can share with you.
God Bless and keep your recovery your main priority.
Keep it going, every day you get clearer headed and stuff makes more sense...and now you also so see just how far down the rabbit hole you went...don't ever go back.
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