thank you all for your help and concern. In the end, i put her to sleep at 1134am today. being only 27, and ive had her since i was 13, this was a truly hard decision. When i talked to the vet, she tried to give signs of *false* hope, but then she was also being honest with us. Missy's kidneys were at maybe 10%, she even lost control of her bowels twice while we were there (alot of blood) and her urine looked more like yellow puss. I found myself where i couldnt say to do it, but then when i looked into her eyes, i knew it was time. and even then, it took me... gawd, what felt like an eternity to decide. the vet gave us options of having a vet come out to the house or just schedule an appointment, or do it then and there. and in the end i decided to do it now. there was no reason 2 make her suffer another 24 hours. i remember a friend telling me how he was "ok" the whole time when he had 2 put his dog down, and it wasnt till the shot when he broke now... and that was in the back of my head, but it didnt work out like that for me. even when we were just talken about her kidneys and such, is when when i broke down. what was worse, is when i said ok and they went to get the paperwork, she jumps up and starts trying to walk around and did so for prob 30 secs. which is about 30 secs longer then she has in the last week. and that made me wonder if she was trying to tell me she was ok, or jsut doing it for me. but i know her, and she was just trying to make me happy, even though she was probably in alot of pain doing it. but in the end, i felt i had 2, for her sake.
again, thank you all for your kind words and prayers.
