Another thing, my friends said I should go on a motorbike course, to get back in the swing of riding again, I said no I'll be ok. The next time I saw the same friends after I got the bike, my first words were I wish I had gone on the course you were saying I should go on.
Also I considered getting another not so heavy bike without a fairing to practice on, as like I said the bike felt so heavy I thought I would drop it, and I had never ridden a bike with a fairing on and that also seemed strange.
So I posted up the problems I had here on the org, and the replies I got helped me so much. I went over to the car park and practiced, and found out the weight was not at all bad, and the bike was stable at slow speeds, and when cornering, which gave my a lot of confidence.