ya mean like just take the pills and lay down the booze and weed?...or?..lay down the pills and weed and just drink the booze sorta "take one item at a time" or did you mean to attack each problem individually until conquered kinda "take one item at a time" ?....lol
I amshamed of the man i've fallen too....but d@mn man..i can't catch a break from having 17 teeth pulled and full dentures (and having problems kicking the 2 months worth of pain killers) too...my 1st born daughter gett'in pregers at 18 (not even thru her 2nd semester of 4 years of prepaid college dads had sittin in the safety deposit box for all 3 of my daughters since '98) and moving out tooooo...invasion of the rats that dang near ate my house in 1/2 over the past few months ruining several major appliances and now i'm thinking..my paid for '05 Nissan Titan 4d CC with leather and 350w Rockford Fosgate which has been sitting dormant for 6 months now..rats chewed through the main wiring harness to the ECU...santa couldn't afford to fix..kinda bad..and yep...i'm a broken man..hung in there quite awhile..next month the wife and i will/would be married 20 years..3 daughters..18, 17 & 12.
i've only ever done enough to try to cope and carry on..and along the way of the catastrophic past months?.....i broke and fell to cruthes and vices...this weekend i'm attempting (again) to detox myself...it's that bad..and real tough to get through...and as i clean up?...the reality of all thats happened comes crushing down upon my soul like Satans hammer...sux.
anyways...taking it one day at a time and doin what i gotta do to keep my almost 52 year old azz from strokin out..i apologize to you all for fallen the way i have..usta be everyday i'd look forward to the love, hope and promises that tomorrow held...and now?...these nights?...things are so bad i sometimes aint even interested in waking up..and i hope you know...that aint me folks..lotta hurtful shid went down..forgivable but..not forgetable kinda shid..and i guess aussies right...i gotta deal with this he11 one monster at a time...thanks for listening, caring and prayers..l8r, Bill.
Last, but not certainly least, don't be afraid to talk with your doctor about getting help for the pill addiction. Drugs affect us all differently and it does not make you weak if you can't kick the habit by yourself. Hang in there. The key to a good life is to see the good in all things around you.
