Valium (John) is a good guy who added his 2 cents in where I felt it wasnt nessecary. He was giving a 15 minute time out. A thing I learned from The Captain. We chatted last night via PM for a couple hours,all is well.
I must admit,I am tired.This place can get to you.
I have had days where I got a hundred PM's and 40 emails.
I'm not perfect,but I try and base my decissions on whats good for the board as a whole.
Here's a little list of some of the hightlights that I have had dumped in my lap:
RSD someone stole my parts.Can you help me.
RSD so an' so is putting kiddied porn in my mailbox.
Rubb help me,so an' so is stalking me.
Andy,I get unwanted PM's from a male board member.
Rubb look at the pictures of the crummy work I got.
Rubb,here some donations to the board,but dont help so an' so.
Rubb cant you ban so an' so,he's a jerk.
Rubb help me get some parts.
Rubb where is so an' so.He left with my parts.
RSD yer an a$$hole.
RSD yer idea's sukk.
Rubb,Captain wont return my PM's.
Rubb can you do this for me.
RSD why cant I post porn?
RSD why does he get too, and I dont?
RSD can you get rid of the nekkid girl avatars.
RSD his avatar is offensive.
Rubb someone is selling shid on here.
Rubb another bike for sale without a VIN.
Rubb why did you ban so & so,he's a great guy.
Rubb I donated a month ago,did you get it?
Rubb another troll.
Rubb look at what so an so just posted.
Rubb,I'm quiting cause U took away the smack shack.
Plus the endless jabs and snyde comments tucked here and there.
Even had a death threat once.
I've set out to do,what I wanted to do. Help a good guy like Doug get out from the debt created by so an so.
Maybe its time for me to move on. I felt like I went above and beyound what a volunteer on a website should do. Thats just the way I work,the way I was raised. I'm a pretty serious hard core a$$hole too. Somedays thats whats nessecary.You must defend yourself just about everyday against some form of attack. Some mods have quit and comeback. Some,like Michelle,have lost sleep over this place. It can take its toll.Its just supposed to be "The Internet" but its only possible to ignore so much,unless your a complete and total a$$,which I come close.
Anyway,I'll take a 2 week holiday,maybe chat with Doug when I get back. I am tired thats forsure. The damage from the accidents takes its daily toll on me and my fam. I spent alot of time on here as therapy,and as a connection to the outside world.
I'm burnt out,but,Its better to burn out,than fade away.