What will you be remembered as?

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Had a good long talk with my mother the other night...had me thinking about a number of stuff.

I wondered what would be missed about me. Which of my contributions (if any) to this world would be missed.

I think about my life and my current situation...and I can't help but wonder if I've squandered all of who I am...what I am...who I may be. Perhpas it was too late in my life that I finally got some sense bashed into me...too late in life that I attempted to live it with "no regrets".

I think about my son...whether or not I'm doing right by him. Doing right FOR him. I can't help but think of my father (God rest his soul)...and whether or not I made him proud with what I've done thus far in my life. Am I being everything that I can?

A somber and sobering feeling tells me that there is a pretty damned good chance that perhaps I have not.

I try to live my life as a religious person...and I can't help but wonder how my Judgement Day will turn out. What sins have I committed that I have forgotten about? What will be the repurcussions and atonement for them?

I don't quite know where this negative trip is coming from. Or perhaps I'm getting delirious with work.
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Wish I knew what it was.

I'm not looking for sympathy. Far from it. I guess you could say that I'm just thinking out loud...wondering out loud. I feel frustrated...angry...resentful. So many things I wish I could change, but then again, who else hasn't felt that way?

Maybe I'm just being a little girl about things. Perhaps a bit melodramatic. HA! I remember someone calling me a drama queen in jest...can't help but think if perhaps it's true.

I dunno...something hit me today. Don't quite know what it is...was. Seem to be in a decidedly negative mood today...perhaps it's just my perception about my current state of affairs. I don't know.


Then again, I could wake up tomorrow morning, read this and think to myself: "What a fool."

Just sharing some deep (at least to me) thoughts with you folks...I've never quite found as good a sounding board as you folks. Hope you all don't mind.

The question for me still remains painfully unanswered, though:

"What good has your life been?"




paul
 
It's not about what you did yesterday, but what you do today and tomorrow.

Lead by example and do the right things for your children.

Never second guess your decisions. If it is what you feel is right, that is all that matters.

By all means, never let some one else judge your life. It all comes down to you and your actions.

Later,

Steve
 
I think we all have moments like these Paul (even though some wont admit it)

This poem really hit home for me one day:

HOW DO YOU LIVE YOUR DASH?

I READ OF A MAN WHO STOOD TO SPEAK
AT THE FUNERAL OF A FRIEND.
HE REFERRED TO THE DATES ON HIS/HER TOMBSTONE
FROM THE BEGINNING TO THE END.

HE NOTED THAT FIRST CAME HIS/HER DATE OF BIRTH
AND SPOKE THE FOLLOWING DATE WITH TEARS,
BUT HE SAID WHAT MATTERED MOST OF ALL
WAS THE DASH BETWEEN THOSE YEARS.

FOR THAT DASH REPRESENTS ALL THE TIME
THAT HE/SHE SPENT ALIVE OM EARTH...
AND NOW ONLY THOSE WHO LOVE HIM/HER
KNOW WHAT THAT LITTLE LINE IS WORTH.


FOR IT MATTERS NOT, HOW MUCH WE OWN;
THE CARS...THE HOUSE...THE CASH,
WHAT MATTERS IS HOW WE LIVE AND LOVE
AND HOW WE SPEND OUR DASH.

SO THINK ABOUT THIS LONG AND HARD.......
ARE THERE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO CHANGE?
FOR YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH TIME IS LEFT,
THAT CAN STILL BE ARRANGED.

IF WE COULD JUST SLOW DOWN ENOUGH
TO CONSIDER WHAT'S TRUE AND REAL,
AND ALWAYS TRY TO UNDERSTAND
THE WAY OTHER PEOPLE FEEL.

AND BE LESS QUICK TO ANGER,
AND SHOW APPRECIATION MORE
AND LOVE THE PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES
LIKE WE'VE NEVER LOVED BEFORE.

IF WE TREAT EACH OTHER WITH RESPECT,
AND MORE OFTEN WEAR A SMILE.....
REMEMBERING THAT THIS SPECIAL DASH
MIGHT ONLY LAST A LITTLE WHILE.

SO WHEN OUR EULOGY'S BEING READ
WITH YOUR LIFE'S ACTIONS TO REHASH....
WOULD YOU BE PROUD OF THE THINGS THEY SAY
ABOUT HOW YOU SPENT YOUR DASH?
 
Pacman....you think too much Bruva.

Me...I'll be remembered as an azzhole.
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RSD.
 
Sound the mid life crisis alarm!
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Dude, you're having the same feelings everyone gets when they are getting to the middle of their life and when they've had their first kid. Or their fifth kid. Doesn't matter. It's the beginnings of a man's philosophical focus on their own life. Wonderful to reflect on things.

However, remember that in the middle of your life, between say, 30 and 40, you're at your prime. Different people hit this prime at different points, earlier or later, but the bottom line is, everything you've done so far has gotten you to this point and prepared you to do exceptionally well for the REST of your life. You're the best you can be and you'll be getting better at everything you do for the next 40 or 50 years. What more can you do except enjoy it and have fun with it?!!!! :

Go forth and conquer, boss!

--Wag--
 
Great poem there! I see that some people are never able to openly discuss these sort of questions, mostly because it make you face your own mortality. You will NOT live here forever. Others may start this thinking midlife like Wag says. It's never soon enough to figure out what you're doing and why. It could be worse. You could start thinking about it in old age on your deathbed and go out with a whimper feeling like a total loss. That would suck. Go ahead and ponder it NOW while you can make conclusions or changes [if needed] and FEEL a direction. Your God, family, friends are all on your side - some have even been there. Some will remain to selfish to help at all.

The meaning of life.

Not a small topic at all. But too deep for many to ever admit they REALLY want to figure it out. At least you are bringing it up in a public forum to gather others view points. This could be very interesting.

Is it more important that YOU feel you will be remembered than it is to do many unmemorable things for selfish people that truly need you?
 
(Tree @ Aug. 03 2006 said:
It's not about what you did yesterday, but what you do today and tomorrow.

Lead by example and do the right things for your children.

Never second guess your decisions.  If it is what you feel is right, that is all that matters.

By all means, never let some one else judge your life.  It all comes down to you and your actions.

Later,

Steve
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Tree, I would very much be pleased to meet you one day, bro.


It would be an honor to meet up with you and buy you a drink.
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Words to live, for sure.
 
(heavybusa @ Aug. 03 2006 said:
I think we all have moments like these Paul (even though some wont admit it)

This poem really hit home for me one day:

HOW DO YOU LIVE YOUR DASH?

       I READ OF A MAN WHO STOOD TO SPEAK
       AT THE FUNERAL OF A FRIEND.
       HE REFERRED TO THE DATES ON HIS/HER TOMBSTONE
       FROM THE BEGINNING TO THE END.

       HE NOTED THAT FIRST CAME HIS/HER DATE OF BIRTH
       AND SPOKE THE FOLLOWING DATE WITH TEARS,
       BUT HE SAID WHAT MATTERED MOST OF ALL
       WAS THE DASH BETWEEN THOSE YEARS.
       
       FOR THAT DASH REPRESENTS ALL THE TIME
       THAT HE/SHE SPENT ALIVE OM EARTH...
       AND NOW ONLY THOSE WHO LOVE HIM/HER
       KNOW WHAT THAT LITTLE LINE IS WORTH.


       FOR IT MATTERS NOT, HOW MUCH WE OWN;
       THE CARS...THE HOUSE...THE CASH,
       WHAT MATTERS IS HOW WE LIVE AND LOVE
       AND HOW WE SPEND OUR DASH.

       SO THINK ABOUT THIS LONG AND HARD.......
       ARE THERE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO CHANGE?
       FOR YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH TIME IS LEFT,
       THAT CAN STILL BE ARRANGED.

       IF WE COULD JUST SLOW DOWN ENOUGH
       TO CONSIDER WHAT'S TRUE AND REAL,
       AND ALWAYS TRY TO UNDERSTAND
       THE WAY OTHER PEOPLE FEEL.

       AND BE LESS QUICK TO ANGER,
       AND SHOW APPRECIATION MORE
       AND LOVE THE PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES
       LIKE WE'VE NEVER LOVED BEFORE.

       IF WE TREAT EACH OTHER WITH RESPECT,
       AND MORE OFTEN WEAR A SMILE.....
       REMEMBERING THAT THIS SPECIAL DASH
       MIGHT ONLY LAST A LITTLE WHILE.

       SO WHEN OUR EULOGY'S BEING READ
       WITH YOUR LIFE'S ACTIONS TO REHASH....
       WOULD YOU BE PROUD OF THE THINGS THEY SAY
       ABOUT HOW YOU SPENT YOUR DASH?
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Ah yes....the "Dash". A very good poem...a very good read.
 
(Wag @ Aug. 03 2006 said:
Sound the mid life crisis alarm!  
poke.gif
 
biggrin.gif


Dude, you're having the same feelings everyone gets when they are getting to the middle of their life and when they've had their first kid.  Or their fifth kid.  Doesn't matter.  It's the beginnings of a man's philosophical focus on their own life.  Wonderful to reflect on things.

However, remember that in the middle of your life, between say, 30 and 40, you're at your prime.  Different people hit this prime at different points, earlier or later, but the bottom line is, everything you've done so far has gotten you to this point and prepared you to do exceptionally well for the REST of your life.  You're the best you can be and you'll be getting better at everything you do for the next 40 or 50 years.  What more can you do except enjoy it and have fun with it?!!!!  :

Go forth and conquer, boss!

--Wag--
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Good lord...midlife crisis already? Geez....I'm not even thirty yet.
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I guess "Primetime" is just around the corner for me....I just wish I understood more.


I hope that I am prepared, though...I can't help but wonder if I'll perform exceptionally.
 
(WWJD @ Aug. 03 2006 said:
Great poem there!   I see that some people are never able to openly discuss these sort of questions, mostly because it make you face your own mortality.  You will NOT live here forever.  Others may start this thinking midlife like Wag says.  It's never soon enough to figure out what you're doing and why.  It could be worse.  You could start thinking about it in old age on your deathbed and go out with a whimper feeling like a total loss.  That would suck.  Go ahead and ponder it NOW while you can make conclusions or changes [if needed] and FEEL a direction.  Your God, family, friends are all on your side - some have even been there.  Some will remain to selfish to help at all.

The meaning of life.

Not a small topic at all.  But too deep for many to ever admit they REALLY want to figure it out.  At least you are bringing it up in a public forum to gather others view points.  This could be very interesting.

Is it more important that YOU feel you will be remembered than it is to do many unmemorable things for selfish people that truly need you?
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Damn, JD...

I'm gonna need some time to think about that one.


I'm with you, though...it would be most interesting to see the debate/discussion points.
 
Full speed ahead bro...you'll make the right moves. If you do happen to make a mistake along
the way, then you will figure out which direction to go from that point.

Don't be afraid to make a mistake, that's how we learn...from our mistakes
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We all could look back and correct the mistakes that we made in the past, but we got here anyway....that is what counts
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(BA BUSA @ Aug. 03 2006 said:
Full speed ahead bro...you'll make the right moves. If you do happen to make a mistake along
the way, then you will figure out which direction to go from that point.

Don't be afraid to make a mistake, that's how we learn...from our mistakes
wink.gif


We all could look back and correct the mistakes that we made in the past, but we got here anyway....that is what counts
biggrin.gif
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Thanks for the vote of confidence, my bro.

I know we need to make mistakes, but damn...I really hate makin 'em.
 
You're probably not at midlife crisis yet. Just feeling the responsibility of your family. It's all good. You'll put that kickstand back up and hit that throttle on your life again shortly and surprise yourself!

--Wag--
 
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