Bussamomingrief...I lost my 37 year old beautiful wife to cancer on Jan 8th, 2003. The pain has never left me as I am sure the loss of your husband and son has never left you and never will. Somehow we have to learn to live within that pain and carry on the best we can. He was a beautiful young man and it is so easy to see your great love for him. It is always so hard to lose the young and the thoughts associated with dying so young and full of life...I hope in time, when you feel it is time, you will allow yourself to live and love again...life is for the living.."it is the hell served up for breakfast that is so hard to take" (came from some poem)...May God bless you, mam, no one can understand the mind of deep and unremitting grief until they have lost the life of someone they truly love..thank you for sharing your deep love for your son. It helps me center myself to what is important in the life. With the loss of my wife I can honestly say that it was as close to insanity as I ever want to be....respectfully 2hip