As far as the heart ache of smashing up a beloved custom project I can relate to that, I am sorry.
It was about 20 years ago and she was a 82 katana, just put in big bore kit, welded crank, ported head, flat side mikuni’s etc. the odometer just turned over 1000kms. Break in over time to let her rip.
My buddy on his shiny green 1998 ZX7 pulled up beside me at a red light, GO!
The intersection was humped and that was enough to get the front wheel in the air and I was very inexperienced at the time. As I slid back on the seat I instinctively grabbed the throttle and looped it hard. It landed on the clocks and smashed the top triple clamp, bent the frame and was totaled.
It was heart breaking and I only had my own inexperience to blame. I felt the fool and had no money to fix her up.
So, I understand your pain.